00h30
Awakening after a short sleep. Drool in the beard, like that of an infant.
Get a sleeping pill at night watch.

 

03h30
Get up without having found sleep again.
Night watch is horrified to find me already dressed. Signal: All is well.
“Avinu sche baschamayim yitkadesch schimcha …”

 

Set up a warm seat at the table; right eye covered waiting.

 

Awakening after about two hours; teeth slightly “bitten” on the tongue, again drool in the beard.

 

The feeling of being the leader of an order.
Setting up a place to lie on the bed and going to sleep.

 

08h22

The day now definitely begins.

Sitting at the table with an eye patch according to the principle:
See left, hear right!

 

Not for the first time my “donkey” chicanes me. My attempt to point out mistakes in my diary has thoroughly failed.

 

Apparently, it has to do with my schizophrenia.

10h42
Did I take my medication this morning?
No! Made up for it now without any problems.

 

16h36
After a good night’s sleep, my conscience reminds me to go to work.
I suspect a sleepless night ahead of me. Noticeable fear! Of what actually?

 

A snake bite under the sole of my left foot. Feelings of struggle rise in me.

 

See left, hear right!

Söll emol cho! Another foot pain on the left. Don’t get cocky!
Tickle nose right. Now beard left. This can become cheerful!

 

Changing feelings all over the body; also on the testicle on the right.

 

Mental anticipation of what I want to start at the beginning of the new week:

An email to my sister Gret, in the hope that she can read it.

 

Thereupon armpit pain on the right. The temptation to abuse my right arm (arm of God). Now tickling on my left ear as well as tickling on my left and right forearm.

 

A clear warning not to abuse my power of attorney!
In this condition, I can no longer open my left eye.

 

Rinse with three sips of water!

Left knee snake bite! Warning of the possible arthrosis on the right.

 

Do not panic. Tickling the left ear equals temptation. Kitzlln left in the beard equal temptation in the beard of the prophet.

 

Continuous tickling in the left ear. Temptation is already in full swing. Pain in the left wrist confirms this.

 

Pressure point on the right below the eye. Request to remove the eye shield on the right.

 

Change of place to the foot end of the bed.

Hawdalah!