Dream after 7 h   I look out of the large parlor window into the garden. On the way, a neighbor who died of cancer years ago passes by. For me I think: if the woman turns my face, she will rise again! And - she turns her face to me and looks at me with a serious expression.     Symbol: As the neighbor woman will rise, my brother will rise again!   John 11 New American Standard Bible (NASB) 24 Martha said to Him, “I know that he will rise again in the resurrection on the last day.”…

I have to collect my thoughts first. My faith is shaken! My brother with cancer died just before noon today. In the course of the afternoon I bid my brother farewell for almost an hour on his deathbed. My faith is not enough to call him back to life!     I cannot yet grasp death; especially because I had set all my expectations for the fulfillment of my July 22nd 2013 dream. My dreams so far have always been very reliable. Is my calling as Israel's Redeemer fundamentally illusory? I feel a great deficit in faith and humility.  …