(I always dreamed of similar things in different sequences) I died, but I still live with a reduced quality of life. I can partly communicate with the living. I experience different places and different people: from toddlers to old people. It is not actually clear who is alive and who has already died. I am reluctant to have died. I realize: I don't want to have died. The instinct for life is incredibly strong. (In between I woke up again and again; each time with a slightly guilty conscience because I didn't get up at 4 o'clock. The dreams repeated…

I wake up after 22 hours, after an hour of sleep. A severe pain in my right knee hardly makes me change my position. I am now wide awake. God wants to talk to me. God alone knows my thoughts. They are my prayer.   Then i stand up. I want to see if God wants to speak to me with the "donkey". It is just past midnight. I may have been wrong about 22:00 when I woke up. I don't feel like I'm awake for an hour.   After midnight is new world! I eagerly read the internal motto…

"If you trust in me and place your hand in mine and allow me to guide you, you will transcend the boundary with me into a new land that you have never known and whose miracles are so great that the most beautiful thing you can imagine merely a shadow is in comparison. But make sure you do not get left behind when I want to go further with you”.     I have the impression that the promise is about to be fulfilled.   Lately, the dream vision of June 2, 2009, has occupied me a lot: “elohim watedaber”…