I get up at half past one because sleep doesn’t want to return so easily. Not surprising, as I keep thinking of my pastor whose advisory mandate has come to an end. In one e-mail he described my mind as a battered neurobiological mind that claims me to be the savior of Israel. In a second email he writes: “From your sense of mission I have to infer a psychotic, pathological-mental trend.”
I get God’s answer to this in my internal motto (lot) in Joshua 1.5:
לא-יתיצב איש לפניך כל ימי חייך כאשר הייתי עם-משה אהיה עמך לא ארפך ולא אעזבך
“No one is allowed to stand in front of you. All the days of your life, as I was with Moses, I want to be with you. I don’t want to let go of you and I don’t want to leave you. “(Own translation)
My heart rejoices. God cannot speak to me more clearly. Just as Joshua (= Yehoshua) was a follower of Moses, I (Yehoshua) am a follower of Jesus Christ.