In today’s image, no cross could be seen far and wide. On the other hand, the star resembled a four-leaf clover with slightly bent leaf tips. A real constellation!
The heathen prophet Balaam had occupied me intensively in the year 2008 “together with my notebook”. In the following I make, my realizations and sensations at that time comprehensible.
On November 5, 2007 my three-year apprenticeship in Judaism had begun. The Israeli – Swiss dual citizen – Israel zwi Marcus – was a great learning help for me.
The following paragraphs are from the “Archive
BILEAM an archetype
The archetypes were already present at Noah’s Ark, even if only reliving and retelling.
I, Yehoshua, am BILEAM. In my three-year apprenticeship in Judaism from November 5, 2007 to November 4, 2010, I experienced this firsthand.
May 2008
Shabat – Dreams
I awake at 4 a.m. and realize I have been dreaming. With some overcoming, I rise to write down the dream. The circumstances of writing down the dream are so special that I can’t help but recount them:
PS to the dreams:
I am sitting in the dark because the electricity is off on Shabat. Fatigue pushes me back to bed. After a first minimal dream write-up, I flip the notebook shut to send my “donkey” to rest. He does not obey. The control light does not go out.
I open the lid and the dream writing is immediately back. I supplement with a preceding dream memory (1) and a more detailed description of the dream (2). Again I want to send the “donkey” to rest. I flip the lid again. He does not go into retirement. The control light still does not go out.
On my knees, in prayer, the thought comes to me to write this PS.
Now, finally, my “donkey” obeys, or rather, finally I have obeyed. I am overwhelmed by God’s subtle work on me. I have learned another lesson and that on Shabat. A buoyant feeling accompanies me all day. (It is worthwhile to read the story of Balaam in the Bible: Deuteronomy 22:1 to Deuteronomy 24:25).
The inserted dream has become so meaningful to me in the meantime that I have to refrain from publishing it at the moment.
May 2008
Monday – Balaam a villain?
In the learning lesson, my teacher tells me about his experiences as an IT specialist at an Israeli bank in Zurich. He was project manager during the transition to the year 2000, which had caused unimagined fears in advance and generated billions in sales. January 1, 2000, fell on a Shabat. My teacher, along with other Orthodox Jews, refused to work on Shabat. They came to the bank in the evening for the hawdalah (transition ceremony on Shabat exit to the ordinary weekdays), celebrated the ceremony there, and then began to work. My teacher thinks that technology has become a substitute religion and emphasizes that to him a middle ground between idolatry and strict rejection (which also occurs in certain Orthodox circles) seems right. We agree with each other on this point as well.
At the end of the lesson, I ask the only question that came to me while studying the textbook by Kitov (author of the book series “The Jewish Year”) about Shavuot. Why do the sages of Israel refer to Balaam as a villain? (Balaam is quoted by Kitov in connection with the giving of the Torah at Sinai). I am burningly interested in the matter because I find myself practically in the role of Balaam with my “donkey” (May 3, 2008). My teacher thinks that Balaam prophesied under duress, which I cannot understand. I will come back to the question in the next lesson.
May 2008
Pentecost Monday – 19th request in the Shmone Essre prayer.
Last night marked the 19th day of my “donkey’s” internet block. This breaks the previous record of 18 days. On April 9 I had pointed out the possible connection to the Shmone Essre prayer. At night I lie awake for a long time and of course I study around on my “donkey”. On the 19th day, the 19th request in the Schmone Essre prayer comes to my mind. This request is at the beginning of a tragic and sorrowful history between Jews and Christians that culminated in the Holocaust. This 19th petition should definitely not be prayed anymore and should be removed from the prayer book. It is my intention to publish this thought on my planned website. I have to think about today’s learning lesson with my teacher and I intend to tell him about my thoughts and also about the sensitive reactions of my “donkey”.
In the study lesson, we talk extensively about Balaam and why he was or was not a villain. As someone directly involved, I take a different view than my teacher. This is understandable since it is the first time he hears my “donkey’s” behavior described in such detail. As an engineer, he has trouble believing that these are not simply technical problems that can be solved by appropriate measures. Combine this with the fact that the story of Balaam has fascinated and occupied me for many years. I can find nothing objectionable in Balaam’s behavior (Genesis chapters 22 – 24), apart from the beating of the donkey. That Balaam ultimately perished by the sword and apparently came to a bad end has nothing to do with his earlier behavior. The righteous, if he later sins, cannot appeal to his former righteousness (Ezekiel 33:12).
At 11 p.m., after two hours of sleep, I am awake again. I reflect on our teaching discussion and am grateful that my teacher sees the matter of the 19th petition in the Shmone Essre prayer as similarly to me. In his view, the problem is that contemporary Judaism lacks inspiration and prayers cannot be changed just like that. There are other things waiting to be adopted, my teacher says. His great concern is the drifting apart of Judaism. On the one hand, there are the ultra-Orthodox Jews, and on the other, the secular Jews. What is not, can still become, we are both convinced.
Ezekiel 37 comes to my mind and I get up to read. There it is in black and white, verse 14: “And I will put my spirit within you, and you shall live; and I will bring you again into your own land; and you shall know that I am the LORD. I have said it, and I will do it, saith the LORD.” (Slaughterer Bible 2000)
May 2011
Tuesday – Website Yehoshua
I know myself called of God in His people. Where do I get this assurance from? Besides the calling through Brother Yun and the vision of Rabbi Kaduri, it is Micah 3:8.
My counselor had promised me Micah 3:8 (first part) during a counseling session on September 4, 2002:
“But I am full of the power of the Spirit of the Eternal and of justice and might/strength …”
(Own translation)
I became aware of the second part of the verse on April 6, 2008:
“… to declare to Jacob his transgression and to Israel his sin.” (Own translation)
My website should be a wake-up call for God’s people! Therefore it is important that I get a professional homepage. Today is the decisive meeting for the design of the homepage Jehoshua. My internal lot appeals to me greatly in Ezekiel 33:12:
“And you, son of man, say to the children of your people, “Righteousness of the righteous cannot save him in the day of his transgression! But the wickedness of the wicked; he shall not fail in it in the day of his repentance from his wickedness! But a righteous man cannot live by it (former righteousness) in the day of his sins!”
(Own translation)
Ezekiel 33:12 strongly reminded me of Balaam, with whom I have parallels. Balaam, who famously came to a bad end, is both an incentive and a warning to me.
May 2011
Thursday – Extraordinary
I am working on my website again. The basic layout of the diary entries is not yet clear. I am practicing. For this purpose, I open a new page every now and then. Now I come to the 3rd of May 2008. There something extraordinary happens. I simply do not succeed in opening a new page, although I let follow the exactly prescribed actions. Only in the following night, when I lie awake, it occurs to me that the “donkey” had behaved so extraordinarily on 3 May 2008. I had written then:
“I wake up at 4 o’clock and realize that I have been dreaming. With some overcoming, I rise to write down the dream. The circumstances are so special that I can’t help but reproduce them:
PS to the dreams:
I am sitting in the dark because the electricity is cut off on Shabat. Fatigue pushes me back to bed. After a first minimal dream write-up, I flip the notebook shut to send my “donkey” to rest. He does not obey. The control light does not go out. I open the lid and the dream writing is immediately back. I supplement with a preceding dream memory (1) and a more detailed description of the dream (2). Again I want to send the “donkey” to rest. I flip the lid again. He does not retire. On my knees, in prayer, the thought comes to me to write this PS.
Now, finally, my “donkey” obeys, or rather, finally I have obeyed. I am overwhelmed by God’s fine work on me. I have learned another lesson and that on Shabat. A buoyant feeling accompanies me the whole day. The interpolated dream has since become so meaningful to me that I must refrain from publishing it at the moment.”
And here is the corresponding unpublished dream:
Dream May 3, 2008 (4 h, in Jerusalem).
(1) I see a strategic arrangement on a blackboard or similar. A series of symbols is represented in a line. The line represents the timeline of history. It is about the return of the Messiah. The latter approaches the last symbol, which represents a great danger. In a huge arc, he avoids the danger and begins at the beginning of the story.
(2) I am in a Christian training camp similar to the Alfa Live course. It is an exclusive society. Everyone has a hanging folder that the others have access to. I find it difficult to use another folder because I am not sure what to write down. I also have the impression of disturbing the company that is in training. The goal is to encourage someone to invite one or more people to a meal. I instruct Hans and Ruth to invite Peter with a bratwurst. My wife has trouble understanding the “game”. As she understands it she shakes her head at the “crazy” idea.
Symbol:
(1) The Messiah comes back to reconcile the world.
(2) Animation of reconciliation on a small scale.
Call:
(1) Are you still ready to accept your calling?
(2) Pray for Hans and Ruth and for Peter!
May 2011
Friday – Hope of impact
My internal lot in Zechariah 8:23b:
“And they will hold fast to the coattails of a Jewish man, saying, “We will go with you, for we have heard, God is with you.” (Own translation)
My Faith: When my website has done its work, the above verse will come to pass.
May 2011
Friday – the servant
My internal lot in Isaiah 42:1:
“Behold My servant: I will lean upon him.
My chosen one has pleased My soul.
I have given My Spirit upon him.
Right, shall he bring forth to Gentile nations!”
(Own translation)
I am the servant.
(Isaiah 40:10, May 4, 2009)
Thank you Father for wanting to use me.
May 2012
Wednesday – Lightning
God has awakened my ear after 1 h to hear as disciples hear (Isaiah 50:4). I feel no bladder pressure, but get up at 1 h 30 to pray in the quiet “closet”. On my knees, I memorize the “Our Father” in Hebrew. As I pray, “tawo malchutcha!” (Your kingship come!), there is lightning, as there had been lightning on August 18 and September 8, 2011. The thunder sounds significantly later.
The experience moves me inwardly. Since the Christian Feast of Tabernacles in 2005, I have been wearing over my left shirt sleeve a prayer strap (similar to the Jewish prayer strap) that says: “YOUR KINGDOM COME – UNLOCKING DOORS”.
May 2012
Thursday – dream after 23 h
Waiting for people. Various keys hang from a wooden post with scrawny sawed-off branches. One, in particular, has taken my fancy. It has the shape of a car. One is also painted and decorated with fine gemstones. Someone wants to grab the key. I mime the owner and ask the person to leave the key hanging. The person identifies me as a non-owner. Another person reaches for the key. I don’t let that happen and grab the hand and wrestle the key from him.
Being:
Waiting for people. Hanging keys on a wooden post with sawed-off skinny branches. I particularly like a key in the shape of a car, decorated with precious stones. I defend it as if it were my property and do not shy away from using violence.
Symbol:
At 23 h we are still in the old world. The key opens the entrance to the new world. I claim its property and need violence.
Call:
Check if you are on the right way!
PS
God awakened my ear to hear as disciples hear (Isaiah 50:4) after midnight (May 4, 2012) before 3 o’clock (interestingly, the date on my watch stopped on that):
As the called Messiah with promised unimaginably great and beautiful miracles, and as the Star from Jacob, prophesied through Balaam, ( Genesis 24:15-24) I will not be a stranger to violence.
The fine gems on the “car key” are from the treasure in the field. (Matthew 13:44, Diary of July 2008)
The wooden post with scrawny sawed-off branches is the cross of Jesus of Nazareth.
August 2013
Friday – Trust in YAHWEH with all your heart.
After my “donkey” behaved in perfect fashion yesterday, today I draw a perfectly fitting internal lot. (Proverbs 3:5,6):
בטח אל-יהוה בכל-לבך ואל-בינתך אל-תשען בכל-דרכיך דעהו והוא יישר ארחתיך
betach el-YAHWEH bechol-libecha weel-binatcha al-tischaen bechol dracheicha daehu wehu yeyascher orchoteicha
“Trust in YAHWEH with all your heart, but lean not on your understanding! In all your ways recognize HIM! Thus HE will smooth your paths.” (Own translation)
Yesterday I was busy perfecting my website. On the one hand I looked for errors in the Hebrew texts and on the other hand, I put, in my opinion, small “improvements”. On February 18, 2013, there is a reference to the second diary entry of October 30, 2012. I wanted to complete the title here (Tuesday – new Jerusalem – salvation of God) with “Redeemer of Israel” because my conviction to be this one is expressed there in the final sentence. – No chance – After completing the change I wanted to look at the result. Instead of the page, I got the message: “Error 404 Not Found” or similar. I am convinced that I made the changes according to the rules of the program. In the version history (collection of drafts) the page was displayed as I had imagined it. A second attempt also failed with the same result. Now I realized: This is my “donkey” talking! I knew the reason and still don’t know it.
With this, it should have become understandable why the internal lot in Proverbs 3,5+6 addresses me so directly. I cannot see through the intentions of God with my mind, but I am deeply convinced that God realizes His plan of salvation with it.
The Herrnhut Brethren Society’s daily lot in Isaiah 2:5 has removed my quietly arising fear that God might have taken away my calling:
בית יעקב לכו ונלכה באור יהוה
beit yaakow lechu wenelchah beor YAHWEH
“House of Jacob, up! And let us walk in the light of Yahweh!” (Own translation)
In the Losungsbüchlein the house of Jacob was “misappropriated”, a late consequence of replacement theology, not noted for the first time.
As redeemer of Israel, I believe to be the star from Jacob prophesied by Balaam. (Genesis 24:17) I, therefore, feel justified, indeed obligated, to address the house of Jacob directly.
April 2014
yom rewii – 9th nissan 5774 – the third temple.
The internal lot in Psalm 91:9b was already the subject of a journal entry on November 4, 2012. At that time I had pointed out that my “donkey” had behaved strangely when I first entered it on July 31, 2009. When he “bucks”, it is always a sign of special attention as with Balaam. The Bible software had only displayed the second part of Psalm 91:9:
עליון שמת מעונך
… elyon ssamta meonecha
“… Most High, You have provided Your dwelling place!” (Own translation)
Since I do not think historically critical, but Hebrew, I do not believe in the traditional translations.
According to my belief, the 3rd temple is ready and waiting. It only needs the revelation by the Messiah. In the meantime, my consciousness has grown. I believe myself to be the Redeemer of Israel and the King Messiah of the world. “He’s nuts,” some readers will now say, which I don’t blame them for. It is indeed a high claim, and I do not yet know how this is to happen practically. However, I have learned that God wants my cooperation and that I should not simply put my hands in my lap. That’s why I’m not letting go of options trading yet. I have spoken with my bank in detail and have learned that the desired transactions with them are not possible. But since no one is allowed to stand in front of me, I have to keep looking. My dream of July 22, 2013, according which I should become a bank manager, is still effective in me, even though my brother has died.
July 2014
Shabat – 7th tammuz 5774 – my proclamation mission.
The Herrnhuter Brüdergemeine’s daily motto in Psalm 19:15 reminds me of my responsibility in my proclamation mission:
יהיו לרצון אמרי-פי והגיון לבי לפניך יהוה צורי וגאלי
yih’yu leratzon imrei-fi weheg’yon libi lefaneicha YAHWEH tzuri wegoali
“They shall be for pleasing, the words of my mouth and the thoughts of my heart, before You, YAHWEH, my Rock and my Redeemer.” (Own translation)
With this, I join David in his request that what I proclaim be pleasing to YAHWEH. Fortunately, YAHWEH has provided me with a wonderful tool: My “donkey.” This one has already corrected me countless times; in my thinking, in my actions. Just yesterday I was made aware of a necessary correction by a broken link.
Today’s Shabat, by the way, with its parashah (weekly reading; Genesis 22:2 – 25:9) is dedicated to Balak, the king of Moab, who wanted to hire Balaam to curse the people of Israel. As is well known, Balaam’s donkey, in the sight of an angel with a sword in his hand, had defied Balaam’s instructions. This is generally regarded as a villain, and he did indeed come to a bad end. In the encounter with the angel, however, he acted impeccably. He confessed to being sinful and was ready to repent on the spot. The fact that Balaam ultimately perished by the sword and apparently came to a bad end has nothing to do with his behavior toward the angel. The righteous, if he later sins, cannot appeal to his former righteousness (Ezekiel 33:12).
July 2014
Yom rishon – 15 tammuz 5774 – Strangers will strive for the security of Zion.
Once again Isaiah 60, i.e. Zion, occupies my mind. The internal lot in Isaiah 60:10 is about foreign helping sons and their kings on the one hand, and YAHWEH whose anger has turned on the other:
ובנו בני-נכר חמתיך ומלכיהם ישרתונך
כי בקצפי הכיתיך וברצוני רחמתיך
uwanu wnei-nechar chomotayich umalcheihem yeschortunech
ki wekitzpi hikitich uwirtzoni richamtich
“And sons of foreigners shall build your walls, and their kings shall serve you.
For in My wrath I have smitten thee, but in My good pleasure I have had mercy upon thee.” (Own translation)
Many foreign people, especially serious Christians, make efforts for Israel. I, too, have been one of these foreign people for a long time. As Balaam blessed the people instead of cursing them, I also bless. This is wrought by YAHWEH, who has mercy on Zion. According to the saying of Balaam, the scepter now rises in Israel; namely, the government and the army. In order to carry out their mission, they need support from the people and also from the “strangers” who call upon YAHWEH in truth and are genuinely of goodwill. From history, we know that YAHWEH has beaten His people for centuries again and again, up to the Shoah. Now, however, He is about to fundamentally turn the fortunes of Zion around. My task is to make people aware of this.
September 2014
yom rewii – 8 Elul 5774 – God is not a man!
The internal lot in Genesis 23:19 is a saying of Balaam, the pagan prophet who is generally considered a villain in Judaism. How can anything good come from a villain?
לא איש אל וחזב ובן-אדם ויתנחם ההוא אמר ולא יעשה ודבר ולא יקימנה
lo isch el wichasew uwen-adam weyitnecham hahu amar welo yaasseh wediber welo yekimenah
“Not a man is God, that He should lie, nor a son of man, that He should repent. Who hath spoken, and should not do it; and hath spoken, and should not let it stand (pass)?” (Own translation)
Unlike God, man can lie and man is fickle. Man is both good and evil. In Isaiah 45:6,7 the Schlachter Bible expresses this as follows: “I am the LORD, and there is none else, who makes light and creates darkness; who gives peace and creates disaster. I, the LORD, accomplish all these things.” YAHWEH stands as Creator above good and evil. The Trinity dogma, according to which Jesus Christ is supposed to be part of the one God, is devastating according to my faith. God is thereby made a “part-man”, which contradicts the statement of Balaam and leads to disrespect for YAHWEH, the ONE God.
As reincarnated Jesus of Nazareth, I have the task to make this clear to mankind. I am, like Balaam, a pagan prophet!
October 2014
yom chamishi – 6th cheshvan 5775 – the root of Jesse – his resting place will be glory
“And it shall be in that day, a root of Jesse, which shall be for a sign to nations, after it will Gentile nations inquire; and his resting place shall be the glory.” (Isaiah 11:10, own translation, internal lot)
והיה ביום ההוא שרש ישי אשר עומד לנס עמימ אליו גוים ידרשו והיתה מנחתו כבוד
wehayah bayom hahu shoresh yishai asher omed leness amim elaw goyim yidroshu wehayta menuchato cawod
On today’s walk, the interesting image from the day before yesterday, (Isaiah 11:1), just came to me: A tree trunk (gesa) with its roots (shorashav); a branch (choter) from the trunk; a shoot (netzer) directly from the roots, which is to bear fruit.
My interpretation of this:
The trunk of the tree is about the family tree of King David. The branch from the trunk is the Jew Jesus Christ and the shoot, directly from the root, is Yehoshua. The branch is noble, from the chosen people, and the shoot has grown wild. After all, it will bear fruit.
The roots are a sign that stands for the nations. The Gentile nations are looking for their origin and the whole thing ends in glory.
The image is coherent in that I have an important point of reference with Balaam, the pagan prophet, and my “donkey”. Meaningful is also my dream of May 3, 2008. The Messiah comes back at the beginning of history, with the original fathers with their thinking. The people of today (YAHWEH zidkenu) must learn to live Hebrew again!
March 2015
yom rewii – 13th Adar 5775 – YOU are always and everywhere THERE.
“If I raised morning-red wings, I would settle at the sea’s end – even there I would be guided by Your hand and hold Your right hand.” (Psalm 139:9,10, own translation, internal lot)
אשא כנפי-שחר אזכנה באחרית ים גם-שם ידך תנחני ותאחזני ימינך
essa chanfei-shachar eschc’nah be’acharit yam gam-sham yadcha tancheni weto’chaseni yeminecha
I repeat myself: YAHWEH is simply wonderful!
Yesterday I wanted to open the input program for new diary entries. I couldn’t without getting some kind of clue as to why. Since the recent experience was still so vivid in my mind, I made no further attempts and put my wanting on hold. Balaam came to my mind, who had followed the emissaries of King Balak, even though YAHWEH had given him a prohibition the first time.
Yahweh’s instructions are absolute. Accordingly, they are to be followed absolutely to the best of one’s knowledge and conscience. Because Balaam had not done so, he and his donkey came into severe distress. (It is worthwhile to read the story of Balaam in the Bible: Exodus 22:1 to Exodus 24:25).
Yes, YAHWEH is always and everywhere there. This is the sum of my experience. With YAHWEH there are also no coincidences. All our hairs on our head are numbered.
That Yahweh’s instructions are absolute, we should accept in faith. Then it will also be possible to take the promise of Reichenschwand literally and live according to it. I say this to all people worldwide, wherever they live. Then we will experience the promised miracles together. But beware that you do not stand still if I want to go on with you!
June 2015
Shabat – 26th Shivan 5775 – YAHWEH hears our cry.
“YAHWEH my God, I cried out to YOU and YOU healed me.” (Psalm 30:3, own translation, Herrnhuter Brüdergemeine daily motto).
יהוה אלהי שועתי אליך ותרפאני
YAHWEH elohai shiwa’ti eleicha watirpa’eni
In my four psychotic episodes with clinic experience, I cried out to YAHWEH with my whole being. Finally, HE healed me instead of keeping me stuck in schizophrenia. HE beautifully transformed my schizophrenia into two films. One film is the writing of the 3rd Testament in the form of the diary and the other film is the return to the beginning of history with Adam. The two films are beautifully interwoven to form a unity.
The recommended morning reading in the Book of Common Prayer: Jonah 1:1-16, and Jonah 2:3: “I cried to the LORD out of my distress, and he answered me. Out of the bosom of Sheol, I cried for help – you heard my voice. (Revised Elberfelder Bible) This crying Jonah was I also, as I am the star from Jacob prophesied through Balaam.
August 2015
yom rishon – 1 Elul 5775 – God is ONE.
“And YAHWEH will be king over all the earth. In that day YAHWEH will be ONE, and His name ONE.” (Zechariah 14:9, own translation, internal lot)
והיה יהוה למלך על-כל-הארץ ביום ההוא יהיה יהוה אחד ושמו אחד
wehayah YAHWEH lemelech al-col-haaretz bayom hahu yihyeh YAHWEH echad uschmo echad
In preparing this diary entry, it occurred to me how many times I have been mistaken in my statements. Again and again, I wanted to reach the goal in a fast way. I think especially of my “donkey” who did not want to go as I did, similar to Balaam. How often I had problems with the internet connection in 2008! Finally, I realized that the Internet is a “matter for the boss”. But even today, I am amazed at what my computer can do without my intervention.
When I first wrote something down in my diary about Zechariah 14 – I realize retrospectively – I used the word ‘paradigm shift’ hastily. In terms of world history, a paradigm shift is something quite extraordinary. But I used the word inflationary 26 times until today. The link at that time exemplifies this. It is obviously connected with the fact that I have imagined the new heaven and the new earth according to Isaiah 65,17 ff. too banal. Since the experience with my deceased brother, I know that it goes much deeper.
YAHWEH will be King over the whole earth and He needs me, Yehoshua, as His arm. My daily prayer that HE may perfect me in obedience and humility is not superfluous, but truly necessary.
With the 1st of Elul, we are in the last month of the Jewish calendar. Now begins the preparation for the Jewish New Year on the 1st of Tishri. Personally, I am preparing for the Feast of Tabernacles (Sukkot), which this year begins on the evening of September 27, on the 14th of Tishri. Sukkot is the last of the three pilgrimage festivals that do not yet have a Christian equivalent. Whether the revelation of my order will already happen this year, or when, I do not know. This year I am especially excited because on September 28, 2015, the first day of the Feast of Tabernacles, there will be a total lunar eclipse; the last of a tetrad. ‘Surprisingly, all of these four total lunar eclipses occur on four Biblical feasts, accompanied by solar eclipses a short time apart (from “Ebenezer Operation Exodus,” Issue 2/2013).
Good thing there are no coincidences with YAHWEH!
September 2015
yom chamishi – 19 elul 5775 – wehayah, it will be.
After 4 h I dream of Hebrew. At the beginning of a longer sentence, it says wehayah (it will be). For me it is certain in the dream that the expression ‘wehayah’ occurs only once in my diary and has an important meaning.
In fact, it occurs 21 times. Now how am I to find the relevant phrase?
In searching, the “principle of Balaam” is important to me, as I call it. Balaam the sorcerer had consulted YAHWEH a second time when Balak the king again sent a royal delegation to him for the purpose of convincing Balaam to come to him to curse the people of Israel. The second time Balaam got the green light from God but got into mortal danger with his donkey on the way because an angel with a sword stood in his way.
My “principle” consists now in the fact that I, with the search for a place in the diary, consider the first and at the most still the second finding place as relevant. If the first finding place in the diary does not make sense, I still go on to the last one, and if this also tells me nothing, I assume that I have made a mistake.
In the present case, the first reference tells me nothing. The last one, on the other hand, does:
wehayah YAHWEH lemelech al-col-haaretz bayom hahu yihyeh YAHWEH echad uschmo echad.
This is indeed highly significant. The passage is on the 1st of Elul 5775, God is ONE.
I may expect to experience something quite significant this year.
September 2015
yom rewii – 25th of Elul 5775 – open blessing hands for Israel.
Once again I deleted the diary entry I had started due to mishandling. This is a little shock every time. Should I not dare a second attempt? Balaam, after all, had greatly angered God because of his second questioning. YAHWEH then put an angel with a sword in his way. I must take it seriously but may dare a second attempt. You could call this the Balaam Principle.
“Let us lift up our hearts to open hands; to God in the heavens!”
(Lamentations 3:41, own translation, Herrnhuter Brüdergemeine daily motto).
נשא לבבנו אל-כפים אל-אל בשמים
nissa lewawenu el-capayim el-el baschamayim.
In my morning “liturgy” I regularly bless Israel. Newly, on this occasion, I will visualize myself holding my heart in my hands and reaching out to YAHWEH; offering to HIM. Symbolic actions that come from the heart please God; I believe.
I have an analogous idea in that YAHWEH is standing on my right. When HE embraces my left shoulder with HIS arm, I cannot waver.
This is made quite clear in today’s internal lot:
“For HE will stand at the right hand of the needy, to save from judges of his soul.”
(Psalm 109:31, own translation)
כי-יעמד לימין אביון להושיע משפטי נפשו
ki-yaamod limin ew’yon lehoschia mischoftei nafscho.
The ‘needy’ in body, soul, and spirit may take this word very personally for themselves. YAHWEH stands by it.
February 2016
yom scheni – 6th adar I 5776 – a second attempt is allowed.
After a first failed diary entry, I am trying a second time. I learned from the story of Balaam that YAHWEH tolerates it, albeit reluctantly. My “donkey” brutally erased my already captured text by once again making mishandling the computer.
Namely, I wanted to slightly change the translation of the internal lot that I had captured on May 9, 2014, as the lottery of the day. My concern is to make it clear to the Jews that Yeshua HaMashiach was really a Jew. The reason for my change request was that my donkey, I called her “Donkey” at that time, had been ‘acting up’ for about a week in May 2009.
On May 22, 2009, the Herrnhuter Brüdergemeine’s daily motto was part of Isaiah 51:7. Here is the whole verse:
“Listen to Me, you who know righteousness, people of My instruction in their hearts. Do not fear human reviling, and before their insults, you must not be afraid!” (Own translation)
שמעו אלי ידעי צדק עם תורתי בלבם אל-תיראו חרפת אנוש ומגדפתם אל-תחתו
shim’u elai yod’ei tzedek am torati welibam al-tir’u cherpat enosh umigidufotam al-techatu
In this regard, the following comments are made in connection with my grammatical notes:
umigidufotam(pl+Suff+min¨j,ge+we), (gid¨ju,gef¨j,ge — ¨ju,gef¨j,ge (was inserted by invisible hand) — Jew found ¨j,ge Yeshua found(?).
Even today I do not know what exactly the “hieroglyphs” mean. The fact is that the character sequence ¨j,ge had repeated itself very often. Since the name Yehoshua is often equated with Yeshua, I assume that this is a confirmation of my reincarnation as Yeshua HaMashiach.
Would this then mean that Yeshua has already given up his position of omnipotence and has subordinated himself completely to YAHWEH? (1 Corinthians 15:28) In that case, prayers to Jesus would have to be ineffective.
October 2016
Yom Shishi – 5th of Tishri 5777 – break in history.
“And all this generation also was gathered unto their fathers. And there arose another generation after them, which YAHWEH knew not, neither the work that HE did for Israel.” (Judges 2:10, own translation, Herrnhuter Brüdergemeine daily motto)
וגם כל-הדור ההוא נאספו אל-אבותיו ויקם דור אחר אחריהם אשר לא-ידעו את-יהוה וגם את-המעשה אשר עשה לישראל
wegam col-hador hahu neessfu el-awotaw wayakam dor acher achareiheim ascher lo yad’u et-YAHWEH wegam et-hamaasseh ascher assah leyissrael.
Yes, in the Bible there are such ruptures, whereas if out of nothing something completely new arises. My mission as a redeemer of Israel is also such a break. Here, in the beginning, there was a bird of prey. It is worth reading this link completely.
In direct connection also my connection to Balaam is to be seen. Early on, I was impressed by the story of this foreign prophet. He is talked down to by the Jews, although his prophecy at the end of his outreach to Balak is of great significance to the Jews.
Genesis 24:
1 Now when Balaam saw that it pleased the LORD to bless Israel, he did not go out prophesying as before, but set his face toward the wilderness.
2 And Balaam lifted up his eyes and saw Israel encamped after his tribes. And the Spirit of God came upon him.
3 And he began his saying, saying, Thus saith Balaam the son of Beor, and thus saith the man whose eyes are opened;
4 Thus saith he that heareth the words of God, who seeth a vision of the Almighty, who falleth down, but whose eyes are uncovered:
5 How beautiful are your tents, Jacob, your dwellings, Israel!
6 Like valleys they are spread out, like gardens by the river, like aloe trees the LORD has planted, like cedars by the waters.
7 Water will flow from his buckets, and his seed will be in great waters. His king will be higher than Agag, and his kingdom will be exalted.
8 God has brought him out of Egypt; his strength is like that of a buffalo. He will devour the heathen, his adversaries, and crush their bones and strike them down with his arrows.
9 He crouches down to lie in wait like a lion, and like a lioness-who will rouse him? Blessed be he who blesses you, and cursed be he who curses you!”
10 Then Balak’s anger was kindled against Balaam, and he struck his hands together; and Balak said to Balaam, “I called you to curse my enemies, and behold, you have now blessed them three times!
11 And now flee to your place! I intended to honor you highly; but behold, the LORD has denied you the honor!
12 And Balaam said unto Balak, Did not I also speak unto thy messengers, which thou sentest unto me, saying:
13 If Balak would give me his house full of silver and gold, yet could I not transgress the commandment of the LORD, to do good or to do evil according to mine own heart; but only what the LORD shall speak, that will I speak?
14 And now, behold, as I go forth unto my people, come, and I will tell thee what this people shall do unto thy people in the latter days.
Balaam’s prophecy
15 And he began his saying, saying, Thus saith Balaam the son of Beor, and thus saith the man whose eyes are opened;
16 Thus speaketh he that heareth the words of God, and he that hath the knowledge of the Most High, who seeth a vision of the Almighty, who falleth down, but whose eyes are uncovered:
17 I see him, but now not yet; I behold him, but not yet near. A star comes forth from Jacob, and a scepter rises from Israel. It will shatter the temples of Moab, and crush all the sons of Seth.
18 Edom will become his possession, and Seir the property of his enemies; but Israel will do mighty things.
19 From Jacob shall go forth to rule, and he shall destroy what is left of the city.”
20 And when he saw Amalek, he began his saying, “Amalek is the firstling of the Gentiles, but at the last, he will perish!”
21 And when he saw the Kenites, he began his saying, saying, “Your dwelling is firm, and you have set your nest on a rock;
22 but you will be laid waste, Cain! How long before Assyria carries you away captive?”
23 And he began his saying again, saying, “Woe! Who will be left alive when God executes this?
24 And ships from the coast of Kittim, they shall overcome Asshur, and they shall overcome Heber also; and he also shall perish!”
25 And Balaam arose and departed and returned to his place, and Balak also went his way.
(Slaughterer Bible 2000)
Breaks in history are irrelevant to God’s plan of salvation. This has been fixed in detail since before the big bang and is written down in the book with the 7 seals (Revelation 5) and is revealed page by page by the pierced lamb. Believers are involved in this.
As the called Messiah with promised unimaginably great and beautiful miracles and as the Star from Jacob prophesied through Balaam, (Genesis 24:15-24) I will not be a stranger to violence.
October 2016
yom chamishi – 18. tishri 5777 – GOD is not a man – last end time
“Not a man is God, that He should lie, and a son of man, that He should repent. Who hath spoken, and should not do it; and hath spoken, and should not let it stand (stand)?” (Deut. 23:19, own translation, internal lot)
לא איש אל וחזב ובן-אדם ויתנחם ההוא אמר ולא יעשה ודבר ולא יקימנה
lo isch el wichasew uwen-adam weyitnecham hahu amar welo yaasseh wediber welo yekimenah
I have already commented on this internal lot on September 3, 2014. Since Balaam is highly topical, I fall back on it.
The daily lottery of the Moravian Brethren in Zephaniah 1:7 points to the end times:
“Hush! Before my Lord, YAHWEH, for near is the day of YAHWEH, for YAHWEH has prepared a sacrifice; has set apart His charged ones.” (Own translation)
הס מפני אדני יהוה כי קרוב יום יהוה כי-הכין יהוה זבח הקדיש קראיו
hass mipnei adonai YAHWEH ki© karow yom YAHWEH ki©-hechin YAHWEH sewach hikdish kruaw.
As a reincarnated Yeshua HaMashiach, I have the inner certainty that we are now in the very last end time. Yeshua HaMashiach made the last valid sacrifice on the cross. And what about those who are invited? In Matthew 22, the parable of the wedding feast is handed down to us. In principle, all people are invited. But they did not want to come. Today the situation is comparable. Few people are inwardly moved by the good news.
We have to make a real decision. The promise of Reichenschwand shows us how:
“If you entrust yourself to Me and put your hand in My hand and let Me lead you, you shall cross the border with Me into a new land that you did not know and whose wonders are so great that the most beautiful thing you can imagine is only a shadow compared to it. But take heed that you do not stop when I want to go on with you!”
December 2016
yom shishi – 9th kislev 5777 – is Balaam, the pagan prophet, really a villain?
“And Balaam answered and said to Balak’s servants, ‘If Balak would give me his house full of silver and gold, I could not transgress the command of YAHWEH my God to do small things or great things.'”
(Deuteronomy 22:18, own translation, Herrnhuter Brüdergmeine daily motto)
ויען בלעם ויאמר אל-אבדי בלק אם-יתן-לי בלק מלא ביתו כסף וזהב לא אוכל לעבר את-פי יהוה אלהי לעשות קטנה או גדולה
wayaan bil’am wayomer el-awdei walak im-yiten-li walak melo weito kessef wesahaw lo uchal laawor et-pi YAHWEH elohai laassot ktanah o gdolah
The pagan prophet Balaam is considered a villain by both Jews and Christians. Something in me has always resisted this. Balaam is a role model for me, which has its reason in the daily lottery. He clearly expresses his faith in YAHWEH to the servants of King Balak. He really carried this out later also opposite the king. In the end, Balaam had to return to his country without pay.
With my “donkey” I have already experienced uncounted miracles. From this, I deduce it to be the star prophesied by Balaam, which he saw prophetically appearing in the far distance. However, this star should come from Jacob, i.e. from the Jews. As a Gentile, I am a prophet like Balaam. I will come from the Jews in a roundabout way. My inner certainty tells me that YAHWEH will still lead me back to Israel. Without breaks in history, as witnessed in the Bible, it does not work.
February 2017
yom rewii – 19 Shevat 5777 – King David and YAHWEH.
“Therefore YOU have shown Yourself great, my Lord, YAHWEH, for there is none like You and no God but You, in all that we have heard with our ears.” (2 Samuel 7:22, own translation, internal lot)
על-כן גדלת אדני יהוה כי-אין כמוך ואין אלהים זולתך בכל אשר-שמענו באזנינו
al-ken gadalta adonai YAHWEH ki-ein camocha we’ein elohim sulatecha bechol ascher-schama’nu beosneinu
This lot has been drawn by the Moravian Church of the Brethren only once since 1999, on November 23, 2014. At that time, I added it to my internal lot collection. That was not long after the kingdom arrived with me. It is a prayer of thanksgiving from King David after he received a promise from the prophet Nathan that his kingdom would be an everlasting kingdom with an eternally fortified throne. The prophecy was fulfilled with Yeshua HaMashiach, the actual, 1st Messiah. As the 2nd Messiah, I may complete what Yeshua HaMashiach began; who sat on the throne to the right of YAHWEH, just as King David prophetically predicted in the 110th Psalm:
Psalm 110
1 A Psalm of David.
The LORD said to my Lord:
Sit at my right hand,
until I put down your enemies
as a footstool for your feet!
(Slaughterer Bible 2000)
The throne is thus in heaven and is thus eternally fixed. The enemies of YAHWEH are the footstool of the exalted Yeshua HaMashiach.
The 2nd Messiah has another, absolutely human quality. Yeshua HaMashiach called the returning Messiah ‘Son of Man’. He was called a ‘bird of prey. So I am a ‘Gentile’ prophet like Balaam. This might also be the real reason that I was excluded from the Bible group “Bible in our time”.
With the beginning of the resurrection of the dead, there will be only ONE GOD and one throne. The resurrection of my ‘led through’ brother Huldreich stands in a prominent place in the preamble to the 3rd testament; directly at the beginning of the actual diary on November 5th, 2007.