(I always dreamed of similar things in different sequences)

I died, but I still live with a reduced quality of life. I can partly communicate with the living. I experience different places and different people: from toddlers to old people. It is not actually clear who is alive and who has already died. I am reluctant to have died. I realize: I don’t want to have died. The instinct for life is incredibly strong. (In between I woke up again and again; each time with a slightly guilty conscience because I didn’t get up at 4 o’clock. The dreams repeated themselves in variations.)

Essence:

I died, but continue to live diminished. It’s undesirable, not pleasant.

Symbol:

Man doesn’t want to die. He wants to live!

Call:

Don’t be lazy!

PS

When I definitely woke up 6 o’clock ago, the times between 1980 and 1990 came to my mind, the psychiatric times, especially the feeling of being on the decline, a real feeling of being lost. Another admission to the clinic (4x) was inevitable at the time.

It is the same for all people. We defend ourselves against dying by all means and, if necessary, also use unfair methods. Power, money and sex are human strategies for survival.

Then I realized that I was called to be Israel’s Savior, but that people do not yet acknowledge it. And there are no coincidences. Everything we experience has a meaning; also, all encounters; even if a relationship is interrupted for a long time, God’s plan of salvation continues; may become clearer.

PS from PS

Interesting that the words: Power money and sex are human survival strategies appear formatted in US-English, but that only the words that are colored in are underlined in red.